So what's really going on?

It's been almost three years.

I thought I would make more entries into this blog. Life just passed by. It didn't happen on its own, I let it pass by. I finally divorced Liz. It wasn't to much, I did represent myself before the judge, that was fun. I've spent a lot of time with women that haven't turned into meaningful relationships. Monica, Melissa, Marcela, Margo, etc. I'm going to give up dating. I did start riding motorcycles, I really enjoy it. I still have my house, I wish I could finish everything I started, and sell the place. I like the neighborhood, and will miss it. We all get along well and look after each other, but the house is more than I can handle. It needs a family, and that doesn't seem likely with me living in the house. At work I was transfered to another section about a year ago. I really miss what I was doing before, but I guess I'm supposed to be learning something at he new position. So far I have learned that I should just stay low, and keep under the radar. I would really like to meet someone and fall in love. I really wish I could embrace what I do for a living. I wish I could tap into my creative side. I wish I wasn't so scared to try a new career. I wish I could live somewhere else. I wish I could be more like my dad. I wish I could come home to a clean house. I have to much crap. I need to be rid of it. yada, yada.

Ten years from now, I'll be in the same house with the same job with the same issues with nothing better to show for myself and still no future. Life sucks. I am the result of over ambitious motivational posters mounted on hallway walls at school. Well not everyone gets to be an astronaut, and the reason for it is that the world still needs ditch diggers.

I'll still have this meager outlook on life.

Peace.